Rebirthing and Birth

Rebirthing is a term that implies several meanings. To me it reminds me that everyday I have the opportunity to choose again, and to become free of my past and my imagined limitations. It is also the name given to a form of therapy, which is based on using conscious breathing to clear old long-held patterns of energy and limiting beliefs.
Preparing to give birth can be the most amazing opportunity for a woman to feel more deeply into her own life and her responses to it. Of course, the lessons are not just within the birth itself but in every choice we are faced with before and after. I have for a long time been intrigued by the patterns and seeming coincidences that have shown up in my life and have learnt to be guided and inspired by them.

This story is about my ongoing personal rebirth, the effect on me of having a baby and the lessons that presented when I became pregnant at the age of 37 with Hu.

Early on in the pregnancy I sensed he was a powerful soul with an invitation to both his parents to get their lives more together! In fact I actually ‘felt’ his hand on my back gently but firmly pushing me with the message “go on, you can do it”!

I had been living a very holistic lifestyle in Los Angeles for about 9years, which whilst it was delightful in many ways, just wasn’t working in others. No matter how I prayed and focussed my energy and intentions, I simply couldn’t seem to break free from a cycle of lack. Despite my inner work I was always one step behind on my rent and bills.

I had gone to LA with my life partner Nevon, and we’d found we’d bitten off much more than we had realised. From the moment we arrived we felt as though we were on a super intense spiritual crash course. Everything that we had not known or understood about ourselves was right there in our faces and demanding greater loving awareness. It was a fast track to awakening and it was exhausting.

We accomplished a huge amount, but after 7years we were simply stuck, unable to make it through certain patterns of mistrust and miscommunication.

We parted, seemingly for good, and Nevon returned to England without me about 6 years ago. But after about 2years, he got in contact with me again, letting me know just how much he had understood about himself now and asking if I would ever consider reuniting to try again.

Well in my time apart I too felt I had changed enormously and I had to admit I was very intrigued. After much prayer and many lengthy phone conversations, I decided to fly back to England and see how such a move would effect me, us and the places within that I knew needed to change.

What I discovered was that there were many parts of me that I hadn’t even thought of or felt for many years that were still stuck in time back in the land of my birth, and in particular were linked to the area that I was brought up in. For the first year at least I found myself processing lots of ancient angst and anger and I knew that these were the reasons that life in LA had just not gone beyond a certain point.

I signed up for a course in Dance, Drama and Voice Therapy with Rebirthing training and began to learn more about the ways that our own birth and early years influence the rest of our lives.

Nevon and I were doing really well together in our updated relationship and soon I became pregnant with Hu, to our mutual delight. Immediately I felt that we must buy somewhere to live so I could give birth at home in a private and safe-feeling environment.

This had always seemed completely financially out of reach to both of us, as we had never stayed still long enough to really develop stability in our work or home lives. But we knew this was the right move, so with the sense of Hu on our team, and only months to go, we set about manifesting a little house of our own....

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